These Eyes (2013)

©2013 by Dallas Denny

Source: Dallas Denny. (2013, 27 May). These eyes. TG Forum.

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve often written about pain as the defining characteristic of transsexualism. All too often we write as if the pain is all there is — and for many transsexuals, it IS all there is. Being in the gender of birth is simply unbearable.

My pain was ever present, but was more, as I’ve said before, like a rock in my shoe than a knife in my breast. Still, I think you’ll agree after viewing the photos, it showed in my eyes.

When I was a child, I had happy eyes. . .

. . . but by the time I was in high school, the pain was showing.

Ten years later my eyes clearly reflected my pain.

Crossdressing didn’t make the pain go away.

In 1989, as I was approaching transition, my eyes were perhaps less sad. . .

. . . but photos taken after my transition don’t show the pain, for there was none.

Twenty-four years later my eyes are old — but pain-free.